Unmotivated

Exams are almost a wk away. and i still have 6 DD webcasts and all my 2012 webcasts. ishall stop ranting abt how slack i m, how i lag so much etc etc.. i would suppose motivation is a key aspect of your every action. To me, studies have slipped down the priority ladder.. i would be totally emotionless if i got the same disastrous results as last sem.. why are we bounded by such rigidities of the system.. the paper chase.. is it that impt in life.. why can't people just take it easy.. the pace of studies is so fast in nus.. u are expected to excel in everything u do.. lecturers expect u to go home n read up more on each module as if u only have tat single module to focus on.. why can't education be like overseas uni, whereby altho u specialize in a certain field u have so much liberty to choose an array of modules from different facets.. maybe i shd haf taken up USP.. greater array instd of boring engin modules.. The intrinsic nature of education has really deteriotated to one of marks rather than learning..

cut hair today.. i was wondering how such pple can stand their routine lives.. barbers doing the same thing everything, hawkers selling food from 6 am to 10 pm.. Work certainly seems scary n fking boring... i cant stand being controlled by routines.. tats not how life shd be .. army was a 1st taste of routine.. die die hafta do even if dun like it.. but i think i got thru my 1.5 yrs of routine (i day work 1 day off 1 day 8-5) by adopting positive mentality... i did the same thing everyday... if not for interaction with my men n fellow specs... and how we bend rules, take the by left way, to alter the routine is how i survived such boring life... i dreaded army, having to wake so early, having to present oneself nicely in front of superiors.. argh... but i guess motivation to ORD kept me on...

i wish i had the same motivation to study now... daydreaming n sleeping my life away...