Motivation

i realise that after IPPT today, i really need to focus on my perserverance.. it is just so hard to push oneself..

Monetary incentives really fail to push me on.. there is just this notion of "give up lar, why go thru so much pain juz for that? there are easier ways to earn that $200".. the inherent mindset of working smart without pain is just there nigging at my brain..

sometimes i wish i was about to blank out all thoughts as i run the dreaded route.. its like all kinds of thoughts come to haunt.. the devil appears *poof* and urges me to give up.. take it slow.. give those muscles a rest.. rest a bit lar.. later can catch up still got time leftover mah.. but i know that once i succumb to temptation, there is no turning back.. it just has to be "keep on going, larger strides" and then external influences come to play.. the old men ard u suddenly drop their pace, the lazy ah bengs all start to walk.. and u r so so tempted to follow them..

in some sense, i shd be proud of myself but there seems to be much more on perserverance i have to learn.. oh gimme my void stone pls....