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after a VERY thought provoking conversation, i have concluded certain things.. do u feel as if army has made u lose ur moral direction n ur willingness to piah? personally, i have witnessed how the hardworking pple dun always get their just rewards, but the smart ones do.. sounds so scheming and PRish.. but it is a harsh reality.. since then i would say that moral ethics have be dulled.. i mean, are u someone who really is so go-by-the-book and still so innocent and always does things the right way? i guess there r still pple in this world who still believe in the goodness of the world.. sadly for me, i dun..

if u wanna live your world by other people standards, then i feel that ur life isnt worth living.. always measuring up to expectations.. the PA _ _ _ Y comment is kinda absurd to me.. its not that i dun see ur pt but i still question the true meaning behind it.. wont u be feeling as if ur every action is under somebody's scrutiny.. dammit.. so many things cannot say in such a public arena.. gotta consider consequences etc etc.. better to do it in LJ

maybe intro to psychology will really be a gd module for me to take.. goes well wif my SS employee management..

at this stage of ur life, do u think u still can change who u r?