When i grow up

suddenly it seems as if i have had to grow up almost instantly. not that i m that young now, but pple always express disbelief when i tell them my age..

fypwise: i went back 3 times this wk.. and being the lazy me, i drove there.. i tried taking bus the first time.. but its juz so much hassle.. take bus - mrt - then the dreaded 179 long ride in.. then go back also squeeze wif all the ntu pple.. and the fact that i realise i have learnt nothing during nus. prof ask: u know html? u know java? u know jsp, GUI? socket programming? system architecture diagram drawing? *all shake head*.. den wad u know? C++ n matlab (tho totally not gd at it) and then he wants me to design a C++ module... i can just feel the work piling up.

before carrying on, here is a song which kinda fits the xmas spirit of giving. From the singers of IRIS, there comes better days from googoo dolls



And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

And it's someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child that saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them

I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this endless fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

i just spent a whole afternoon sorting out admin documents for my dad.. insurance, loans, dividends and stuff.. heh there was also a annual statement that came in the mail which i used my fna knowledge to look at.. i looked thru like 19 insurance policies n loans.. i realise greater responsibilities come wif greater income.. esp when u start earning.. (which hopefully i will in 3 mths). for those whu haf been asking, my dad will start treatment on cancer in jan, putting his stroke therapy on hold.. n there r so many risks and consequences involved.. my relatives have been offering support from all aspects.. we were having an mini audit session just now.. 2 uncles 2 aunts 3 cousins n me.. it would have been great if we had an insurance agent present.. maybe i shd have taken up the offer that strange man offered me that time (nic goh assoc).. then i will be so pro..

n i m feeling like a gf whose bf went to bmtc.. jen went for her npcc course n these 5 days she confined in ubin.. den its like only during her bunk time den she can talk to me. come to think of it, i now understand y gf demand bf to pei them when they book out.. oh well army seems like such a distant memory.

then yday results came out for a while.. the link is down now btw.. i din chk as usual.. adopting my vietnam attitude.. escapist! juz wait til 26th bah.. 1stly is ca2 on the 18th.. hope i impress..