Feelings

A 12 day trip. i shall just be brutally honest here. Eventful indeed. In retrospect, i feel that i fulfilled my objectives. I met up with all my frens and my auntie and that was enough(muz thank xz for his hp too which i abused hehe). I think i have a different notion of holidaying cos' i dun have to cover so many places.. as long as i m wif TRUE frens, then i dun mind lingering in one place. An example would be Kensington Park. If i was given more free will, i would have juz basked in the sunshine and greenery which i have been deprived of in Finland.. i would play wif the ducks, dogs, birds and probably go up to the pple playing soccer there and ask to join in.. but due to group dynamics, one has to sacrifice and think on the whole..

Making decisions is always so hard. always have to take into acct the other parties. and knowing the pple ard me, i can roughly gauge their responses and what they want. Having to settle differing opinions was a chore, somemore gotta think about the gals' safety throughout the trip.. from place to place, have to watch out for danger and potential harmful areas.. racism and young punkness aside, there was always the possibility of getting lost and being approached.. summore we got pink jenny so conspicuous and the fact that we were tourists snapping at every monument din realli help us blend in wif the locals.. It is times like this when u appreciate how safe finland is compared to UK.. the nights are much safer to roam back home, and even more in SPORE.. this leads to the leadership notion, who wants to take charge, when pple give opinions, some others keep quiet and dun say anithing, only complaining in silence.. it was hard being the middleman in estonia since i had to bond both groups.. the tampere grp and my denmark frens.. i m sure jen would haf felt the same when we went newcastle.. in the end, we juz agreed that it was better to bochap and juz enjoy our trip.. i must be thankful for jenn, if not for her on ness thruout the trip and her willing to compromise and mix wif everyone, i would not haf enjoyed myself as much n she kept me sane. in a way, she sort of replaced the Danish dudes during the estonia trip so i could achieve a balance.. the tampere turmoil would haf gotten to us a bit but ultimately in my fave city of my life - london, i realli had fun there.. watching the musical which i psychoed them to watch, getting my camera confiscated and still remaining cocky inspite of my wrongdoing.. watching my soccer match.. There was a whole range of emotions raging and the only time of respite i gotten was where i drifted alone, immersed in songs and able to think clearly.

when apart from the grp, u tend to make certain observations, as i said human nature is so interesting.. u can view the ugly head and the good side.. remaining impervious to external influences is pivotal to keeping a clear mind and judging people.. in some sense when we met up wif the edinburgh pple, it was a refreshing change.. edel's craziness and jf's scardeycatness.. then there are times when u review ur actions, ur thoughts and the way u could have acted better. i think i have evolved to one that defies authority from time to time.. i took so many illegal fotographs in museums, churches, operas, i hionged a couple of transport and entry fees.. in a sense, i think that everyone has a secret self that is not known publicly.. even so, i dunno whether i will repent or improve thyself.. i suppose all my doings will come back to haunt me one day.. karma..

SEP realli has opened my eyes wider.. would u say that pple change during sep? i think i havent.. the freedom i have enjoyed here has definitely led me to me more slack.. up til now, skipping lessons, copying assignments is the same thing i would do in nus.. but i can do it to a greater extent here.. i bet my mum would freak out if she viewed my daily lifestyle..i also think i m talking to strangers on a more frequent basis.. juz innocent crap n tok cok sessions..info digging and culture exchange...

just wanna add something abt the o.c epis i juz saw.. it was this epi where ryan caught marissa kissing dj.. yes 2nd season.. i m watching again.. then he sort of said that they were NEVER friends when he suggested that they shd juz be frens.. and then seth n summer also damn cute.. the script is realli nice.. i love the lingo! seth wanted to biao bai again on a hot dog stand and summer stopped him and hooked up wif zach.. she told him that he had her 3 mths ago n he chose anna, he had her last summer but he went to sail away and that he only relishes the CHASE.. so there u go and she walks off.. such a poignant moment esp wif all the nice indie songs coming in.. realli best series..

looking forward to the bowling session later and the OVernight sports session tmrw night.. so fun! come back hol got these activities! Weeeeeeee...