Escapism n contentment

i realise i m really an escapist.. i juz dun wanna face problems. rather procastinate til the really last moment.. sighz. yes i haven decided on my sep.. wat to do nxt sem.. whether i really m made for engineering crap.. hence to ESCAPE from all these dilemmas, i immerse myself in reading, tv n DOTA.. rather think of which hero to bs than to think abt things tat really matter.. oh well lemme deceive myself a lil more longer.. after reading amy, jiali, vijay blog i find tat contentment is something so relative.. i m so so fastidious, always seeking new thrills.. hmmz.. maybe its time to learn to be content wif wat u haf... maybe i dun really need to splurge 15K in a foreign land wif no english classes where u freeze to death n its always dark.. juz to fulfil tat lifelong dream of indpt living n education abroad.. how many times does one always wish tat maybe one was richer, smarter .. but one has to be content wif wat one already has..

to view the glass as half full instd of half empty.. optimism.. all the cliche encouragement.. but still.. the will must be present.. oh wellz.. life goes on... life motto : boat will straighten at bridge